constipation or diarrhea
this is how it is with loneliness, I have realized recently.
It's either constipation or diarrhea, either I am so, so lonely, almost disappearing out of this world, or either I am occupied by all the crap that I really don't care about, so called connections.
Of course, there are good connections. The good ones can easily make my day. But the thing is you don't get to choose.
I wouldn't call this neither good nor bad. I think this is just a fact. Just a fact about one's lifestyle, and the effect that it brought, since everyone wants different things, and there should be no judgement. And as always, things are cyclic.